Bigger Than Me Part 2

As I continue to walk through the world I realize just how big the world is. How unique every person is, how gifted, blessed, and worthy each one is. I begin to ask myself where I fit in in this big world of ours. I realize then that it is easy to feel small and lost and to ask where I belong. 

Sometimes I will feel lost, sometimes I will wonder but I am rest assured that I am not more or less deserving to be here than any other. I remind my soul, that I belong. I am here because God wants me to be here. Right here, in the middle of all this beauty, all this talent, and all this uniqueness. My story fits in the bigger story of the universe. The story of creation. Instead of hiding and watching from a distance, I slowly begin to own my space and my embrace of belonging. I belong, you belong, we all belong. 

The world feels intimidating, and sometimes I don't know where to start but I will start from right here where I am. I will embrace my present moment. I will embrace myself, with all the beauty that I carry and with all the flaws that I have. 

I will cherish the people that I meet every day and I will seek my purpose of meeting them. If we are meant to journey together I will accept the joining of our worlds and if we are meant to meet and part after a while or immediately, then I will let go gracefully. 

I will seek to find purpose in each day, in each place, and in the interaction with every person I meet. I will hold on to the wonder of how big the world is and let go of myself to navigate through it. Slow down when I need to, stop when I must, and move forward as time sees fit. 

 

I will come into contact with people whose stories are unfamiliar to mine and that is okay, I will even meet those whose stories are so similar to mine that it scares me, and that's okay too. To seek only a familiar experience is to seek only ourselves. We are all living here on earth and yet we are experiencing different things. Some of us love our experiences and some wish our experiences were different and yet that does not mean we don't deserve to be here. 


This might not even be my last stop in my geographical shifts and the navigation of cultural battles and that's okay. 

My world will most likely continue to expand, my horizons will continue to broaden, and yet with that, I will continue to show up as my full self. I will not hide nor think less of myself as that will be unjust. In the vastness of the world and in the smallest of details. The world is bigger than me and yet I belong! 


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