December 15th

 December 15th

I woke up and I felt a feeling I had never felt before. After I finished doing the house chaos, I went to the bedroom and prayed. The first time I remember ever talking to God on my own was on that day. I prayed that God would heal you. I prayed that I may get to see you again. After praying, I went back to doing the mundane things of life. At 17:00, uncle B came back home and he was talking to Chongo, they were whispering words I couldn't hear. I noticed them looking at me and I felt a sting in my stomach. I didn't want to hear anything they said, so I continued sweeping the surroundings. Aunt Queen then came and told Elina and I to quickly prepare and get ready “we are going somewhere”. So I went and prepared myself. We then walked to the bus stop and got on a bus. I recognized the route we were taking, we were going to your sister's place. 


Once we got off the bus, we continued walking. I never asked where we were headed, I simply continued walking. As we approached the house, I heard cries but I ignored them. I entered the gate, I saw people laying on the floor and crying, I ignored them. Until I saw my immediate elder sister crying. Then 8 year old me knew that you were gone. Sadness engulfed me, grief held me, sorrow came near. My body met the ground and my tears streamed from my heart. My first love was gone. My hero, my protector, my number one support system, my church buddy, my singing partner, my saloon buddy. My first roommate, the woman that carried me for 9 months in her womb and gave herself fully to the duty of being my mother was gone. 


Insurmountable pain

Impregnable sorrow



Today marks exactly 13 years mum, 13 years of not hearing your voice as you sung those sweet melodies, 13 years of not running to you on my best days, when I passed number 1 and on my worst, when I swallowed a marble. 


You will always remain in my heart mummy. Greet the angels for me, till we meet again mama, your baby girl loves you with every fiber of her being. Rest well. I hope you look down from heaven and smile when you hear me sing. In the Sweet by and by we shall meet on that beautiful shore.


To the most beautiful, selfless, kind, powerful, caring, loving, giving, faith fulled African Queen ~ Majory Chomba (MJ)

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  1. Sidi KingDecember 15, 2021 at 2:36 AM

    My dearest,
    I am so sorry for your loss. Up in the heavenly heaven of the almighty, she must be so proud of the daughter she raised and the entire world is too lucky to have you!! Keep your head high as you always do!! I pray that she rest in peace 🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽

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