THE Phase

The achievements of high school made me think life would be straightforward for me. I thought I was going to graduate with great results, apply to schools in the US and leave for University by 2019. I thought this was going to be the way and that nothing could change it. I did get great results but many things changed, am in my first year and this is 2021.

With so much motivation and zeal because of the future I envisioned, I worked very hard. I studied whenever I could. I made strategic plans alone and with friends. I was ready to put in everything that I could. I woke up late at night until morning and stayed up till night. I was there studying as though my whole life depended on it, as though if I didn’t I was going to die (not to sound too dramatic but you get the point).

I implemented different study plans, some worked, and some didn’t. I made timetables more times than I can remember. I wrote formulas on paper and stuck them on the wall. I had a lot of study books. I borrowed past papers from friends and I owned some as well. I moved back to back between the pages. Solving past exam questions. I was there unretarded, relentless, doing it for the future, doing it for a future. I thought I had an idea but I really didn’t. I was pursuing my education, I stayed true to my cause. I wrote all the notes in class and did every exercise. I ran after the teachers to ask for guidance, to ask for past papers and books. I borrowed books from teachers after they got them from the Library but gave them to me even though they weren't supposed to. I was trying. I also asked the secretary who happened to be one of my good friends to help me print some past papers and she did. I worked through each past paper I got printed. I was there in the wave of high school trying all I could to stay aloof in my studies. 

The final G.12 exam did not scare me but I was definitely anxious about what it would be like and if my efforts would fully translate into the marks that I would later get. Then I started preparing for SATs. I did not fully understand why SATs were important, I knew they would be needed by Universities, especially in the US since that is where I envisioned myself to be. I tried to divide my time between my GCE Cambridge exams and the SATs, but I thought that my GCE exams were far more important because they marked an end to the given 12 years of primary, secondary, and high school. I wanted to finish on a high note so that I could look back later and appreciate my efforts, which I did. I graduated. I went home that day without thinking about what would be next for me, actually no, I wrote down some things after I spoke with the principal who advised me on some of the things to put on my mind. One of them being, “be part of a group of youths who frequently go to church and commit themselves to serve the lord”. The second being that I should work on my personal growth by reading self development books. 

To be continued 

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